Friday, September 24, 2010

I've Come to Realize

1. I've come to realize that things...Happen for a reason and we should be grateful for everything we have in life, becuase it can be lost in a second.

2. I've come to realize that my friends...Are my life. I could not have done half of what I did without them, they made me the person I am today, and I thank the Lord for the people who have found me, everyday.

3. I've come to realize that when I'm driving...I love to listen to music, and sing. I also have conversations with myself, sometimes in french.

4. I've come to realize that I need...to not worry so much about pleasing others and just be myself.

5. I've come to realize that the person you may have....taken for granted might not know how much they really mean to you.

6. I've come to realize that life....is what you make of it. You only get out what you have put in.

7. I've come to realize that procrastination...is laziness in disguise.

8. I've come to realize that money...really does make the world go round, but definatly doesn't grow on trees.

9. I've come to realize that certain people...make life worth living.

10. I've come to learn that I'll always...care about people way to much and be way too emotional.

11. I've come to realize that my sibling(s)...don't have to share my blood and DNA.

12. I've come to learn that my mom...is more then a mother, she is a friend.

13. I've come to learn that my cell phone...is nice to turn off once in a while.

14. I've come to realize that when I woke up this morning...God gave me the opportunity to see the Sun for one more day.

15. I've come to realize that last night before i went to bed...That I need to go with the flow and not over think things

16. I've come to realize that right now i am thinking...I really do miss my family and friends.

17. I've come to realize that my dad...is a great role model and influence in my life.

18. I've come to realize that when i get on Facebook...That I have way to many "friends" who I never talk to.

19. I've come to realize that today...is the day to make things happen.

20. I've come to realize that tonite...'s the night, let's love it up.

21. I've come to realize that tomorrow....I can sleep past 6.

22. I've come to realize that I really want...my family and friends to be happy.

23. I've come to realize that the person most likely to read this....Is really important to me.

24. I've come to realize that life...is worth it.

25. I've come to realize that this weekend...will go to fast.

26. I've come to realize that the best music to listen to when I'm upset is...music that brings out the tears. I just need to get it out.

27. I've come to realize that my friends....are people I can not possibly ever live without.

28. I've come to realize that this year...has challenged me more then anything I have ever done in my life and made me appriciate people and things I have taken advantage of before.

29. I've come to realize that people....do crazy things when they are in Love.

30. I've come to realize that maybe I should...think things through a little better.

31. I've come to realize that I love...my life, I couldn't ask for anything more.

32. I've come to realize that I don't understand...how some people have no passion or desire for life.

33. I've come to realize my past...is my past for a reason.

34. I've come to realize that parties...are over-rated.

35. I've come to realize that I...am stronger then I thought.

36. I've come to realize that my life...should be lived for others.

37. I’ve come to realize that my favorite comfort food is...pizza

38. I’ve come to realize I’ll never like...to do laundry

39. I’ve come to realize my favorite moment in life so far is...coming home to hug and love after being away for so long.

40. I’ve come to realize...that God is in control and I'm just along for the ride.

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Some things never change, And some change everyday.

Another Week come and gone....

Breakaway ended up going awesome on Tuesday! I sucessfully gave my first bus tour of phoenix, dealt with crazy SVDP workers/clients, got through the day without giving any one a JUG, and ended with a little smiley face eating a shark on my name tag! (In the mornings all of us put on nametags and I decided that I am going to attach each on to my binder along with the number and a little emoticon/picture of how I felt about the day.)

On Wednesday afternoon I headed up to Manresa retreat center in Sedona for the Magis retreat, which was amazing! The adult talks, the student leaders, the retreatants, the weather, the scenary, everything was just perfect! Besides the sharing and general getting to know yous, we also got to go on a 5am hike in Oak Creek Canyon. First of all, It's awesome that I hiked a canyon in sedona, the home of the red rocks, but also its the first time since coming to AZ that I have been cold. It was seriously like 50 degrees in the morning. After the Hike, thursday was full of talks and activities that enabled me to really get to know some of the guys. They are all great people. I feel like all the guys are so honest and genuine. It's very different being around teenage boys, when there are no ladies present. They develop this sense of community and brotherhood with each other that is amazing to watch develop (And of course when they did there little testimonies of brothership to each on the retreat I cried). But alas boys will be boys and when they were asked what the qualities of manhood are, everyone said facial hair in some way....

I think my talk went really well. I wanted to post it here but I though that wouldnt be a good idea, so if you want to read it, Let me know and I will send it to you!

Being at manresa only added to my homesickness however....I was in the mountains, it was cold, I was doing soul searching, It only makes sense.

Friday I got back and was welcomed back in to the loving arms of my community drinking Burboun Whiskey out of Coffee Mugs and watching Youtube Videos (Somethings about JVC never change). We rounded up the troops and headed on over to Casa Bart for some weekend Shannanagins, which ended for some of us at 5am with the rise of the sun.

Saturday I slept til noon (First time in like three years) then went to the Scottsdale Mall which Becky and her Aunt, I can honestly say I know how the other half lives. This mall had Gucci and Louis Vitton stores for Goodness Sakes. We went back to Marys house for dinner then headed home to meet Casa Bart again and went to this cool Irish Pub to watch the U of A/Iowa game.

This morning I woke up at 8 (back to my usual granny wake up time) and went to the YMCA. Then I did a little shopping on stipend yey, and went swiming at Becky's aunt's friend's house. Went to Mass, ate dinner, and now I'm here.

My life is not that exciting anymore.....

I am super excited that Jake is coming this weekend though, and the fact that Glee and NCIS start Tuesday. Actually I'm not sure which one I'm more excited for. JUST KIDDING! But seriously NCIS, GLEE, and JAKE in the same week. What did I do to deserve this!

Peace, Love & Social Justice!

Monday, September 13, 2010

Ten Things.....

1. Freshman Retreat went awesome! My Big Brothers did an amazing job of sharing and encouraging their freshman to make the most out of their 4 years. It was nice to get to know some of them, and really here them put themselves out there and be vunerable. It was kind of a long weekend but well worth it. I'm excited to get to know more kids. I also had to organize 250 students at one service site. I though it was pandamonium, be apparently other people thought it went well...

2. I have Freshman Breakaway tomorrow. Only one kid didn't hand in their permission form. I'm gonna have to talk to their parents and I hate talking on the phone. I'm doing it with another faculty member who is taking his own car and leaving early. Another thrown to the sharks in the best way possible moment. I really hope this goes well.

3. My LP boys are so quiet, but really good with the kids. They are engaging them really well. I had an expereince with one of the sixth grade boys today. They start being cheeky a little earlier then I remeber but who knows. We played hang man with states and I taught him how to sound out really big words like: antidisestablishmentaryinism (Spelling?)

4. I have to give the Magis talk on a retreat called Magis. NO PRESSURE!

5. I am still awake, but I should be sleeping.

6. Casa's Bart and Truth have now decided almost EVERYTHING is going to be a competition. So Far the series is tied 1-1 with Truth winning a version of Baseball and Bart winning KickBall.

7. I am reading the Jesuit Guide to almost Everything for work.

8. I really want to figure out a way to go to NCCYM again!

9. Riding a Bike when its 100degrees is not a good idea.

10. I put picture on the board, an odor neutralizer on the shelf, and a reed difuser on my desk. After Frosh Retreat I feel all unpacked and ready to go!

Saturday, September 11, 2010

Have You Forgotten?????? 9.11.01 Never Forget....

On 9/11/01 America was attacked by terrorists, Hijacked Planes flew into the twin towers, pentagon, and another that crashed in a field.

For many New Yorkers and other people, this day is forever engraved in their memory, they remeber where they were and what they were doing. Those people that were deeply affected, I can assure you will never forget. This day is hard, as it always will.

But I'm asking all of you, those who didn't loose someone, those who live 3,000 miles away, those who may have only seen it for a few days on tv.

Have you forgotten?


I hear people sayin'. We Don't need this war.
I say there's some things worth fightin' for.
What about our freedom, and this piece of ground?
We didn't get to keep 'em by backin' down.
They say we don't realize the mess we're gettin' in
Before you start preachin' let me ask you this my friend.

Chorus
Have you forgotten, how it felt that day?
To see your homeland under fire
And her people blown away
Have you forgotten, when those towers fell
We had neighbors still inside goin through a livin hell
And you say we shouldn't worry bout Bin Laden
Have you forgotten?

You took all the footage off my T.V.
Said it's too disturbin for you and me
It'll just breed anger is what the experts say
If it was up to me I'd show it everyday
Some say this country just out lookin' for a fight
Well after 9/11 man I'd have to say right.

Chorus
Have you forgotten, how it felt that day?
To see your homeland under fire
And her people blown away
Have you forgotten when those towers fell
We had neighbors still inside goin' through a livin' hell
And we vow to get the ones behind Bin Laden
Have you forgotten?

I've been there with the soldiers
Who've gone away to war
you can bet they remember just what they're fightin' for

Have you forgotten
All the people killed
Yes some went down like heroes
In that Pennsylvania field
Have you forgotten
About our Pentagon
All the loved ones that we lost
And those left to carry on
Don't you tell me not to worry 'bout Bin Laden

Have you forgotten?

Have you forgotten?

Have you forgotten?!

*Have you forgotten by Darryl Worley*

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Welcome to the OFJ aka the office that got hit by a bus

My entire office and co-workers look like a bus ran over them. Freshman retreat is this weekend and its been crazzzyyyy. There is just so much to much and so little time. Getting service, buses, faculty mentors and prayer services ready for 400 boys by Saturday is not the easiest thing to do. I spent the day making maniall envelopes, calling parents, organizing stuff for my co-worker and trying to catch myself up on work that I had seriously slacked on while trying to figure out this breakaway thing.

So I may work at a nice resonably weathly jesuit high school and not have the emoitonal stress of working with people that are on the margins of society, but working is definately draining and hard everyday. There is just to much to do and not enough time to get everything done. Whoever made the descision to put Karios, Magis, and Freshman retreat in the same week, take my advice, please dont do that again. Everyone is sick and looks like they got hit in the head by a 2x4. It took me til April to look like this last year lol....

Let me take you back to Monday afternoon....

So On Monday Eddie came over for a little pow-wow about Breakaway, since I was totally freakin out. We worked on it for a little and it quickly gave way to on of America's favorite past times: The BBQ, fully stocked with hamburgers, watermelon, and america's finest adult beverages.

Tuesday Morning I woke up with a little bit of fear in my heart, it was breakaway day. Although surprisingly all of my over planning paid off and it went off without a hitch. We got all the boys together in the morning, and headed out not before I had call three moms on the phone so that I could get verbal okays first and headed on our drving tour of Phoenix. It was really good having Eddie on the first one since he did about 35 last year, I was able to see how it was done and get comfortable with the idea and my job. We served lunch to 650 people, then Eddie and I had a break for about an hour while the boys hung clothes and sorted hangers. We all took a break in the chapel and did the examen and talked about the day, what we did, what we saw, what challenged us. We did a family pro-file activity where the kids were seperated into three groups and given the income and expenses of a working poor family and had to make a budget. It usually didnt work. Then some of the boys worked on the docks sorting through clothes while others played with kids in the dining room. I was with this one little boy who wanted to play patty cake, then hide and seek, well hide he did alright and for a good minute I though I actaully lost him since he ran into a room with a maze of cubicles.

I'm telling you I felt like the mamma duck. Me and my eleven sons. I think I found the newest form of birth control. Forget having people carry around baby dolls that do nothing, drive a bus full of 13 and 14 year old freshman boys around all day. It is definatly and experience. Twice I had to say, "You do realize I'm a teacher right,and I believe that comment was only midly offensive."

Eddie and I got back to the office, sat down at are desks and didnt move for like the next twenty minutes.

Wednesday I had to catch up on the work I had missed because I was out of the office all day on Tuesday. Then in the afternoon, I had to take 10 sophomores down to St. Agnes so they could tutor the students and complete there service project. I think this is going to be awesome! I love little kids, most of them are between 2nd and 4th grade. My favorite! I already had one kid give me a hug when I left and say he didnt want me to go home. Then when I said I would be back he was all excited and gave me another hug! Apparently everything I said about never wanting kids after my tuesday experience, went out the door on Wednesday when I was with the six year olds....

This weekend is Frosh Retreat, for which I am going to be at school at 8am on a saturday morning, and listen to speeches and talks all day before taking a group of boys to SVDP (Saint Vincent De Paul) for their service experience and driving out to the boondocks to do a prayer service and reflection for my freshman and their Big Brothers. Then I Have to be back there at 9am for mass sunday morning.

And Next Wednesday I leave for the Magis Retreat already....were has the time gone. Before you know it, it is going to be October already! Whoo Time sure flies when your in the Zona.

Its also getting to be that time of year where I am terribly homesick :(

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Seriously Universe......

In the Best way possible I was thrown to the wolves this week. It wasn't done on purpose, but the stars aligned and all the right circumstances came into play so that I was left in the office with all three co-worker gone, On my third week of work and in the days before my two main projects were set to begin. Two were on retreat and one with a serious case of the Flu, plus I was sick myself and not totally at my best. Actually I was seriously lagging a major part of the week.

Well the fact that I had my first freshman breakaway on Tuesday and we had off monday didnt hit me until Friday afternoon, at which point I went into a blind panic. I ended up staying at school until almost 6:30 at night. First taking a tour of St. Vincent de Paul, trying to take notes while the volunteer coordinator talked at a speed of 8 miles an hour. Then I spent the rest of the afternoon splitting my time between reading over the binder and making sure I knew where to go, making sure I was well aware in how to run the poverty awarness activites, and in general making sure I had mentally prepared myself for taking twelve 14 year old boys out on a day-long service immesion.(Which I have heard is a mentally, emotionally, and physically draining day.

I also had to make sure everything was ready for the Tuesday/Thursday installment of the Loyola Project, which involved triple-confirming with all the schools, making sure the attendence sheets were up to date, re-emailinf students about having there permission forms in and setting up the binders for the faculty mentors. Thank goodness I did since there was a little scare. One of the schools had informed me that they had our start date wrong, (It's the 8th and they had it as the 21st) so there might not be kids for the first 3 weeks for our guys to tutor, but luckily enough we averted the crisis and there will be many happy, peppy, energetic second graders to annoy and challenge the sophomores.

I also did a training for the tutors, worked a club fair, answered lots of questions about things I had no idea about, contacted all the students interested in working on the student advisory counsil for our annual summit on Human Dignity, tracked down students who owe me permission forms and dealt with difficult parents.

Oh and I also subbed all of my two co-workers classes for 3 days completely on the fly. It was awesome being inside the classroom. I can't wait to teach UCC next semester!!!!

By the time the Casa Bart folkes picked me up from work on Friday, I was pretty frazzled. We did have a great time on Friday night though. Matt, who is in JVI and will be leaving for Peru in a few months invited us to his house for dinner. He graduated from the shcool I'm at and went to college with a few of the other JVs in Phoenix, so there were lots of connections there. His family treated us to awesome grilled steaks (The Vegetarian thing went on hold for the night) and let us swim around in their pool for a few hours. We just hung out talked about JVC, our jobs, schools, etc....

Today was the laziest day I had in while, probably since last memorial day weekend when Jake and I spent the day doing nothing but watching NCIS and Hanson music music videos while talking about Vampires. I laid around most of the day watching, you guessed in NCIS, and then later on the office. In my defense I did clean the entire Kitchen and the bathroom and go out with brittney to get dinner. But I did spend most of it in the comfort of my air-conditioned house. Hey I already have a cold, I want to get better so I don't get the sereve contagious flu from Mr. Cullen.

I hope to be more productive tomorrow. Get up semi-early go to church and maybe go to BEcky's Aunts house for another Labor Day celebration. They relax on Monday and prepare for my freshman breakaway expereince Tuesday and my LP boys on Wednesday.....

Wish me Luck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Teacher, Teacher

Thanks to the fact that my wonderful co-worker Edward Cullen is out sick and in bed with some God-awful Flu thing, I am now a teacher. I have been subing his classes. It is amazing how rambuksious 14 year old boys can be at 830am.

At 8am i've been up for 2 hours and Im ready for my second cup of coffee or my morning nap. (well not today, I woke up at 7:30 when Eddie texted me asking me to cover his classes again and basically ran to work to get here before the 8:05 Bell) I am pleasently suprised at how well the boys listen. I don't know what I was expecting working here, I think I let Matt's rantings get to my head. I know its only the third week but I am really enjoying my job and all the people I have met here so far.

This weekend we are going to hang out with a guy who is in JVI leaving for Peru in a few months. It will be cool to find another volunteer friends. Yeah hes leaving in Nov but hopefully we can be friends until then. I miss having the other volunteer friends like the AVs :(. So many memories in Beverly, Some were slamming others, well they make for interesting life stories.

I miss Chi-town and it's people alot, but im definatly starting to feel the Arizona Love and once it gets a little cooler here in Arizona, I feel the love ever more :)